I keep on fantasizing about fucking a certain world famous Brit from behind (I wrote about her recently), or in more vulgar parlance, doing her doggy style.

Let’s just say this girl is married, recently married. Am I lusting after another man’s wife? If so, is this is adultery? I don’t really want to fuck her, I just enjoy thinking about it. And yet those thoughts are there. What to do?

In my own life I have being living a rather celibate existence. This is a willing choice on my part. For various reason, I simply do not want to have sex with anyone right now. Cheap and casual sex are always intriguing in thought and fantasy, but the reality of bedding various women is quite different. Besides, having spent large portions of my earlier life engaging in such activities, I know what it is all about, and understand the risks and potential fallout from such behaviors.

People talk about chastity or celibacy as if it were some kind of curse. But the real curse is being a slave to one’s sexual desires. To have some control over your behavior gives you peace and clarity and protects you from some of the more insidious aspects of unbridled sexual behavior. Besides, subjecting yourself to the capricious whims of women is not something I have much tolerance for now. Women have phenomenal power over men primarily due to men’s coveting their vaginas. Women of course are more than aware of this and in that power the worse aspects of the feminine disposition often are displayed and exercised. A more healthy attitude between the sexes can develop if the whole sex thing is put in its proper place. In my mind, one characteristic of the true alpha is knowing when to simply walk away from this sexual subjugation. The game community amuses me because, despite their proclamations of independence from and control over female behavior, they reveal in their obsession with game and patterns of engagement their complete subjection to female desire and approval. Getting pussy requires quite a bit of energy and strategy which often is not worth the effort, once the true value of whatever female you are pursuing has been clearly revealed.

But I know how difficult these things can be. Lusty, animalistic fucking is still a desire embedded deep in my system, even when I am not having sex. Despite its problematic nature, I still allow myself to fantasize about sex, desire women, and seek sexual release when needed, even if done solo. So for now I do not sleep with anyone, but I do allow myself to fantasize about, write about sex, and seek some degree of sexual pleasure on my own.

The above image by Salvador Dali again is interesting for me because it captures the imagery that races through the sexual mind, even when we best try to control our thoughts. Erotic painting or drawing is some of the most powerful erotica, because it springs from the imagination, is the product of an artistic process, and lacks the problematic issues of human exploitation that are inherent with standard, real life porn today. We all have sexual thoughts and good artists can capture those well, what they mean, how they effect us, the power of our erotic subconscious world, even the weirdness of some of our sexual desires. Sometimes I just need to let my thoughts wander. Otherwise I become neurotic about sex. In the end, it is a question of balance for me, neither becoming too sexually unhinged, nor too puritanical in my need for some continence in my sexual life. As always, it is a work in progress.

So back to my latest object of fantasy. Yes, she has been a subject of my fantasies lately. I bet she enjoys getting drilled from behind. I bet she has a great looking ass too, especially when she is on all fours. One of my favorite views of a woman is when I am fucking her from behind, her hot ass all visible to my filthy, dirty eyes…